Ah so I got back two days ago : )
It's nice to be home.
Summer was wonderful aside from the shitty roommate and the lack of BFFs.
I'm really glad I went, I made meaningful bonds and learned a lot about myself.
I got really close to Mariko-sempai, my T.A.
I'm so sad that she graduated! but we will still hang out!
I took Anthro and Japanese and they were both wonderful classes.
The future greatly excites me because college is amazing!
<3xoxo

Is love ever a guarantee?
can one go throughout their life completely alone in the world without a semblance of intimacy?
I've always thought about this.
Is it really necessary to have someone?
life gets so confusing sometimes, and it really is a stretch to get to know someone when I can barely get a grasp of myself.
I came to summer school as an escape.
I was way too stifled back in SD.
Among the redwoods I can finally pry apart my human experience and really just think on things like these.
I've always viewed dependence on others as a weakness and I thought that the same rule applied to love.
But it really isn't a dependence. It is a conscious effort I think. Only when it falls to dependence does the weakness settle in, like the the lactic acid seeping into my tissue after a beautiful exercise.
I really think you have to invest yourself completely into the compromise to fully enjoy the benefits of love.
I just don't know if it is really worth it.
I've always been a caring person, but just never able to give myself like that.
ah we'll see.
:D

I met an awesome person today.
Her name is Natsumi.
Natsumi-san wa Tokyo kara kimashita.
Nijuuissai desu.
Despite being mentally handicapped she has such a refined sense of humor.
We played apples to apples.
so much fun.
I'm finally seeing how petty i am.
happiness comes in much greater forms.
ahh im tired.
oyasumi! <3